Struggling

Finally, I fall sick. Caught a cold? I guess. Shouldn't take too much spicy food. I never get to learn to take good care of myself though I should be able to do so. It's true that I'm too stubborn and lazy to seek for doctor's advice or even take pills. I hate pills, especially when I knew I have to spend money because of my own silly fault or ignorance. Struggling and kept struggling. I never learn, never take the lessons. What a sigh... Perhaps I should study pharmacy or medicine, but it's too late.